Insomnia..

I am insomnia again =x
Ok. Take it easy babe..
Try to find something to do..
Hmp....
Let's blog about my feeling about these few days.

As usual,
I woke up around 11am,
After brush teeth and breakfast time,
On facebook and msn,
If nothing special I'll on tv or watch movies..

Today,
My dad woke me up around 9am,
He brings us out to breakfast,
Planed to my uncle's house after buying those ingredient for my dad's business at Selayang,
But failed to do so, my dad decided to go home..
We lost our ways during the journey,
Finally, we found our ways when we saw MidValley Megamall..
My dad suggested to have a walk in MidValley,
We were windows shopping along and took our lunch at KFC..
Then, we went home.

I open facebook again when I reached home..
Saw some articles that about couples activities..
I found him in my mind indeed when I was reading the articles.
I felt sad and I missed him.
It was a hard feeling. It's pain.
I told myself thousand times, he is no longer belongs to me but I just can't put down him.
He will flash out my mind when I read or touch or went or doing anythings or any places that related to him.
Is I myself to break up with him so I shouldn't have these kind of responses when I was in the circumstances.
Perhaps I need times. Perhaps it will just take a short period for putting him down.
May times can cure everythings =(

I having some problems with home.
I just can't communicate nicely with them recently.
Don't try to get any reason from me on these problems.
Because I myself have no idea on that.
Hopes I can settle it as soon as possible.

Loneliness appeared again.
Where can I find an ear? A shoulder?
Who can I call in this late night to share my feeling with him/her?
It's hurt when I found nobody.
Maybe I should enjoy the loneliness?
Oh gosh!
You are appearing in my mind now again.
Arghhh! Help!!
I knew I can't call you. I knew I shouldn't do that. :'(

I knew you will having your final exam next week.
All the best ya =p

Goodnight everyone..

to you

别伤害自己

你最近的生活应该不错吧

加油吧！

失眠的夜

2010年11月16日

这个夜晚 我失眠了
不知道为什么
我头脑总是分泌出一些人的影子
和一些跟他们曾经经历过的事

我想起了他
这几天都想起了他
每当晚上回房间睡觉时
一闭上眼他的一切就会浮现
好几个晚上 都是他陪我入眠的
甚至发梦也会梦见他

但是在现实生活中
我很想靠近他 可是我就停滞不前
我怕而且忧虑着很多事
我怕 我一往前他就退后
我怕 他会推开我
我怕 我们因此再也不是朋友
我怕 我们不适合
我怕 我们都被时间错过了
我怕 我是因为寂寞所以才找上他
我更怕 我会伤害到另一个她
我有太多无法确定的因素了
我也担心事后的结果并不天从人愿
我不敢告诉任何人
因为被牵连的 实在太多了
不说出来 或许 是一个更好的选择

我很乱
我不懂该怎么做
顺其自然 结果会否像我期望的一样？
努力去争取 会否得不到我想要的？
毕竟我跟他好不容易才和好
跟她更是多年好友
我并不想失去这一切

不过
事实摆在眼前
目前我能够做的
也只是扮演好朋友的角色
一步一步来
其他的都不去想了

一切就听天由命吧！
加油！

Random post..

2.53am
I will remember this moment..
The moment I miss you badly..
I saw the blog I wrote about you before..
I found that the memory between us was sweet..
You are the one who treat me most sincerely and most protect me..
How good if we can back to the pass..
So that I can cherish you again..
I promise if I am given the chance, I will treat you the best I can..

But,
I should Figure out the feeling in my heart.
Do the feeling pop out when I am lonely?
Or I really fall in love with you in the second time?
Do we suitable to be couple again?
Erm, the best way to investigate is we separate for a period of time..
Right?

Pray hard to Lord..
A-men