2010/10/27

氧化

今天的心情很奇怪
不懂正确的方向在哪

此刻希望身边是你
但 只有那无味无色的空气在弥漫着

想打给你 按好了号码 却没勇气按下拨通键
不想打扰你 不想烦着你

最近多了很多习惯
习惯把自己的烦恼心情隐藏起来
习惯了我们这种沟通方式

我不喜欢这样
可是我知道我没办法选择

逆来顺受
是我今天想表达的

我不知道你有没有上来看
我不知道你到底懂不懂我的心情
我不想懂这个答案

我们的感情 氧化了吗?

2010/10/26

保险期

还在深宵k书着,
此刻手在键盘 眼在荧幕 耳在988..

最近真的很逊哦
我真的好久好久没写些很感性的东西
没记错的话大概有一年多的时间了

刚看了988DJ 欣怡的部落格
突然有股冲动 有股感性的心情
想写写自己的心情
可登入了部落格以后
那些感觉全军覆没了
呼~~ 算了呗!
做人要看开点嘛~ 这样日子才容易过 ^.^v

不过话说回来
我真的有段很长的时间没写了
最近的文笔有点生锈了
每每当我自己责怪自己的时候
就会有个想法帮自己逃离
不断地告诉自己 感觉真的在酝酿着
可是这煲汤也未免煲太久了吧!
纳闷~ >.<

刚才在欣怡的部落格里看到这么的一句话
"如果单纯不要刻意保鲜,是否会被生命氧化?"
这句话有在我心里回荡了一下下,
如果我们不要刻意地保鲜,会否让另一样东西给氧化掉?
那么爱情呢?
很多人都把爱情用保鲜纸给系上,希望爱情可以长跑..
可是勉强地贴上保鲜纸,意义还存在吗?
但我们人往往就是这样,也许是习惯吧!
但如果我能选一样来豁免保鲜期的存在,我会选择人的想法..
在我的角度里,随着人的年龄逐渐增长,想法也要越来越成熟吧!
当我用理性思考时,心灵就会平静下来,
清晰的头脑,可以帮助我分析什么是该做的什么是不该做的..
人长大了,想法应该也要到达那种年龄层吧!
或许是自己一厢情愿的想法,可我不觉得这有什么不好的 =]

988电台也进入没DJ的时段,
看看时钟也已进入2010年10月26日的第2个小时了..
心情已调节好,study mood也回来了~
加油吧!

2010/10/25

encouragement

It's me again..
I'm run out of study mood..
I'm desperate for someone's encouragement..
but i feel sad with the feedback..

All the times,
I was the one who keep encourage myself when i facing difficulties..
Unfortunately, I am not god..
I will moody like what I having now..

What to do?
I just can maintain the situation..
Encourage myself for the exam..

Let's have a deep breathe,
close up your eyes,
relax your mind,
tell yourself that you sure can,
1 2 3
open your eyes and study..

Jia you! If you think you can, you can make the different!

Quote of today: Positive spirit is the best weapon to achieve the goals..

2010/10/22

renew~

it's 11.44pm now...
i'm sitting in front of com...
things keep crossing my mind so sudden..
i just couldn't escape from it..

i wondering why problems won't stop for a while..
everyday every moment the problems will come and knock my door..
after i solved them, another will come..
it's just like a non-stop circle..
keep turning around me..

concert planning,
exam revision,
job vacancy,
income,
phone,
electric guitar,
oh gosh!
i hope i can run away from all of these..

when can i owe a new phone?
i really desperate for it..
but i know that it will be a long period for my next phone..
i knew that i should cherish for what i owe now..
at least the situation isn't worst until i have no phone to use..
but, i still hope that i can owe a new phone with camera function...
aimed Sony Ericsson Aino for it's 8.1 megapixel camera...

okie..
exam just passed 1 week with 10 papers...
still got 2 more weeks to go..
hopefully everythings will be fine..
must pray hard to god le..

i thought about my future..
finally, i had change my mind..
but i still struggle between business admin, accounting, banking and finance with mass com..
maybe i shouldn't think about so far for now..
anyways, i had made up my mind..
form 4 --> form 5 --> matriculation --> university
if possible i hope to study at oversea..
scholarship is the key to success because i knew that my dad had no money to spend on my study..
so i just can continue with scholarship that i have to achieve by my own self..
i like matriculation just because their system..
they seperate into few sem so that i can study seperately..
it's a tough work if u having final exam with the whole thick textbook like form 6..

okie..
it's the time to bed..
flu is visiting me..
better have a good rest now and start my study's engine later on 5am...
gambateh every candidates of the stupid final exam...
next week is the toughest week but after that we are free!
so be patient for the coming holiday~


Quote for today: life is easier with happiness, aren't?

2010/10/17

break

wait...
first of all, i hope i can take a deep breathe..
huu~ ok...
i m taking a break from sejarah and bm revision now..
and it's a right time to blog..

i didn't went to work this two days..
actually i felt guilty of this..
because i knew that my dad needs me for his business due to i had a long time din help him when i was traveling at Sabah...
haiz.. i knew this is out of my possibility..
if i given a chance, i hope i can separate myself at once so that i can help my dad and study for exam in a meantime.
it's jz a dream. i knew it.

i m lack of times...
i m the one who cause this problem happened.
my rational told me to study as much as i can, but my laziness told me not to touch books.
obviously, my laziness won the match.
i got do revision, but most of times i waste it with sleep and dreaming.
okays, i accept the truth. i will try my best, no worries k?

countdown: 22 days~

听君一席话

刚刚跟我哥聊了聊
我们说到人的脑和人的心

他说的很对
我很赞同

:"某某某很聪明又如何?人的心最重要,如果人的心无法控制大脑,几聪明也是假的..."

:"就像爱因斯坦,他的智商200,人人都说他很聪明,就连他死了科学家也拿他的脑来研究,研究他为什么这么聪明。可是实际上是他的聪明帮助他得到一切的吗?不。他也是经过无数次的失败才有今天的成就,而成就他的就是他的心,他的毅力,他的坚持。所以说,一个人如果不能接受失败,从失败中学习,坚持到底,即使给他再高的天资智商也没有用。"

:"一个人的心态很重要,就像你有一把刀,如果你的心态正确,你就会拿刀来帮助你做切割工作,如果你心态不正确,你就会拿刀杀人,一样的道理。"

:"考试成绩不好没关系,就重要是你的心态要正确,要问心无愧。尽力了就好,千万不要放弃。只要不放弃,你还有机会达到目的,一旦你认输了,你就在也没有机会获得成功。"


听君一席话,胜读十年书。
我赞同我哥所说的。
只要我不放弃,就还有成功的希望。
心态真的很重要,是决定一切的关键。
加油吧!叶家妃!

2010/10/04

懊恼_ing

最近心情乱糟糟的
前一阵子跟他有点问题
然后学会又有点问题要处理 要面对
我整个人都垮了

虽然大部分的问题都解决了
可是我心情还是一样
我无法专注在课本上
怎么办?
死期就要到了
唉~

我可以杀掉我自己吗?
懊恼_ing~