你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他有那么好
你说会懂我的失落
不是靠宽容
就能够解脱
我以为
我出现的时候刚好
你和他正说要分开
我以为你
已对他不再期待
不纵容他再给你伤害
我以为我的温柔
能给你整个宇宙
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生
我以为终究
你会慢慢明白
他的心不在你身上
我的关心
你依然无动于衷
我的以为只是我以为
我以为我的温柔
能给你整个宇宙
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生
他让你红了眼眶
你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好
你要留在谁身旁
我以为我够坚强
却一天天地失望
少给我一点希望
希望就不是奢望
却输得那呢绝望
Based on her situation and this song,
the feeling that I kept deeply inside my heart fade out again..
I duno wat happen to me..
I thought I m d kept it well..
I thought I d nth..
I thought I d forgot the feeling..
Lord, I hope that it is jz a dream..
Jz a small period of thinking nonsense..
I hope hat this wun affect me n him..
I hope that lord can gv me strength to differentiate reality n dream..
He, was jz a pass..
Jf, is my choice now..
I love him..
I do meant it..
2010/09/18
2010/09/17
2010/09/02
2010/08/31
revision
4am now,
going to sleep although i am not sleepy..
Don't hope to break my record for 10++ hours study for exam non-stop 2day...
i scared my brain will blank out...
hopefully it won't...
ps: Don't think that tomolo will wake up on time for breakfast with movie kaki..
okays,
i have to off to bed!
Happy Merdeka Day~
Gambateh on my exam! ush ush ush~
going to sleep although i am not sleepy..
Don't hope to break my record for 10++ hours study for exam non-stop 2day...
i scared my brain will blank out...
hopefully it won't...
ps: Don't think that tomolo will wake up on time for breakfast with movie kaki..
okays,
i have to off to bed!
Happy Merdeka Day~
Gambateh on my exam! ush ush ush~
2010/08/27
2010/08/22
Birthday
Read her blog just now..
Honestly, I m envy about her life..
Her life is full of best frenships bt wat do I?
When i was still a small little child,
I always told my fren that I got a lots of frens n I admit my social network is quite good..
Bt now, I have to admit that I m a looser.. Looser in frenships..
Actually, I m nt so trust on my fren around me..
the side-effect of being betrayed?
I jz cnt figure it out..
I reali scare to get hurt from my dear frens d..
Perhaps they always do believe n sayang me..
Honestly, every year before my birthday, I m quite looking forward for it..
I m curious that wat my fren will give me n how do they celebrate for me..
So do this year..
Bt it is quite sad that wat I imagine isn't happened..
Due to imagine=fake illusion?
I cnt get the surprise party or any related surprise from them..
I hope that I cn get the same things from fren as wat I have done for them..
Will this small little request consider as a excessive request?
Haha..
It is just a sudden feeling that I caught when I read her blog..
This post is meant nothing..
Jz a fucking bull shit post..
Ignore this please..
Thanks for ur cooperation.. ^.^
Honestly, I m envy about her life..
Her life is full of best frenships bt wat do I?
When i was still a small little child,
I always told my fren that I got a lots of frens n I admit my social network is quite good..
Bt now, I have to admit that I m a looser.. Looser in frenships..
Actually, I m nt so trust on my fren around me..
the side-effect of being betrayed?
I jz cnt figure it out..
I reali scare to get hurt from my dear frens d..
Perhaps they always do believe n sayang me..
Honestly, every year before my birthday, I m quite looking forward for it..
I m curious that wat my fren will give me n how do they celebrate for me..
So do this year..
Bt it is quite sad that wat I imagine isn't happened..
Due to imagine=fake illusion?
I cnt get the surprise party or any related surprise from them..
I hope that I cn get the same things from fren as wat I have done for them..
Will this small little request consider as a excessive request?
Haha..
It is just a sudden feeling that I caught when I read her blog..
This post is meant nothing..
Jz a fucking bull shit post..
Ignore this please..
Thanks for ur cooperation.. ^.^
2010/08/10
2010/07/09
2010/03/23
Happy Birthday to Mii!
Happy Birthday to Mii...
Happy Birthday to Mii...
Happy Birthday to Mii...
Happy Birthday to Mii...
Happy Birthday!
looking forward of my little genting and ipod touch!
opps~!
Happy Birthday to Mii...
Happy Birthday to Mii...
Happy Birthday to Mii...
Happy Birthday!
looking forward of my little genting and ipod touch!
opps~!
2010/03/21
Musical Dream
okays...
let's have a short review of the music camp...
sunday(14/3)
suppose to arrive at new era on 5pm...
due to the stupid sian jee and xian min went to midv watch movie till cant rush bek to kjg and i have to wait them, so we were late to there including audio & lighting....
okays...
after we finished to fetch all the drums and audio tools to new era, we went out and had our dinner at 7 wonders...
sian jee paid the bills by camp money....(shhh....)
then we walked bek to new era and start our works...
we arrange the t-shirt, seperate them into group, put their tag and receipt into t-shirt and stick newspaper to cover the door's windows...
until 3am we onli went to bed...
whole nite we keep singing SJ's sorry sorry while lixuan busy talking phone wif her hubby...
monday(15/3)
taa-daa! the big days!
we woke up at 5am and walked to McD to have our breakfast...
after that quickly walked bek to new era and start our work...
after opening ceremony and ice-breaking, we had our 1st talk about band concept...
i missed sum part of it, coz i went out wif my parents coz of some urgent matters...
at nite, treasure hunt, incharged by our facilitators...
a tired and horror treasure hunt...
we run here and there in the new era and escape from those "monster", find our clues to finish our mission...
new era is a small hills, try imagine that we have to run here and there...
wat i can said that it is very crazy and tired...
after treasure hunt, AJKs had a small and long meeting...
we quickly to have our bath after meeting...
end our days around 2am...
tuesday(16/3)
woke up around 6am...
while waiting our breakfast, we had our morning exercises...
no mood to do so i jz sit beside and continue to sleep...
but i knew, it was a nice morning exercise...
after breakfast, we still have 2 talks to go on....
my eyes keep closing when attending those talks coz i m very tired and i fall sick again...
when telematch, i went to become head of station games...
no more energy to play...
after dinners, our showtimes!
an awesome talents nite, i like it!
went to bed around 1am...
we 6 girls' AJK keep dance SJ's Sorry Sorry...
fully addicted of it...
wed(17/3)
another 6am to wake up...
i go help preparing breakfast so i missed the morning exercise again...
after that, it's another talks that followed by closing ceremony...
i almost cried in closing ceremony...
wat did Mary Ann said is touching my heart, i reali felt wat she said...
then, we sang our theme songs again~
camp came to an end...
i went home around 4pm after finish keeping all the things...
an awesome camp...
nice theme song that composed by zhilin and weng yin...
i will keep this memories in the deep of heart...
it's a waste that u din attend to the camp, rui...
i will post the video, photos and theme song lyrics later...
see ya=]
let's have a short review of the music camp...
sunday(14/3)
suppose to arrive at new era on 5pm...
due to the stupid sian jee and xian min went to midv watch movie till cant rush bek to kjg and i have to wait them, so we were late to there including audio & lighting....
okays...
after we finished to fetch all the drums and audio tools to new era, we went out and had our dinner at 7 wonders...
sian jee paid the bills by camp money....(shhh....)
then we walked bek to new era and start our works...
we arrange the t-shirt, seperate them into group, put their tag and receipt into t-shirt and stick newspaper to cover the door's windows...
until 3am we onli went to bed...
whole nite we keep singing SJ's sorry sorry while lixuan busy talking phone wif her hubby...
monday(15/3)
taa-daa! the big days!
we woke up at 5am and walked to McD to have our breakfast...
after that quickly walked bek to new era and start our work...
after opening ceremony and ice-breaking, we had our 1st talk about band concept...
i missed sum part of it, coz i went out wif my parents coz of some urgent matters...
at nite, treasure hunt, incharged by our facilitators...
a tired and horror treasure hunt...
we run here and there in the new era and escape from those "monster", find our clues to finish our mission...
new era is a small hills, try imagine that we have to run here and there...
wat i can said that it is very crazy and tired...
after treasure hunt, AJKs had a small and long meeting...
we quickly to have our bath after meeting...
end our days around 2am...
tuesday(16/3)
woke up around 6am...
while waiting our breakfast, we had our morning exercises...
no mood to do so i jz sit beside and continue to sleep...
but i knew, it was a nice morning exercise...
after breakfast, we still have 2 talks to go on....
my eyes keep closing when attending those talks coz i m very tired and i fall sick again...
when telematch, i went to become head of station games...
no more energy to play...
after dinners, our showtimes!
an awesome talents nite, i like it!
went to bed around 1am...
we 6 girls' AJK keep dance SJ's Sorry Sorry...
fully addicted of it...
wed(17/3)
another 6am to wake up...
i go help preparing breakfast so i missed the morning exercise again...
after that, it's another talks that followed by closing ceremony...
i almost cried in closing ceremony...
wat did Mary Ann said is touching my heart, i reali felt wat she said...
then, we sang our theme songs again~
camp came to an end...
i went home around 4pm after finish keeping all the things...
an awesome camp...
nice theme song that composed by zhilin and weng yin...
i will keep this memories in the deep of heart...
it's a waste that u din attend to the camp, rui...
i will post the video, photos and theme song lyrics later...
see ya=]
2010/03/14
camp preparation
Hoo~
luckily i m still alive from the exam's war~
sick jor so many days...
yesterday finally fever d...
high fever... almost 39...
so 2day morning mummy brought me to clinic...
now feels better...
thx god!
13/3/2010
2day went to new era college wif all camp ajk to do some preparation...
stupid sian jee told me that they all still eating in yellow corner...
mana tahu when i arrived they all gone d...
phone no money to call...
luckily 7-11 is jz behind yellow corner...
if nt sian jee's mata will bengkak...
finally met them in cziplee and then walk to new era...
after sian jee "bull-shit" about new era facilities, we started to arrange table and chairs in the classroom that will sleep for 2 nites...
the room is quite cold...
i wonder where got 3D2N camp jz nid to pay RM80 and sleep at air-cond room ah?
so comfortable and worthy~
after finished arranged tables chairs and chit-chated, we went to big hall to hang up our banner...
xian min and sian jee became our hero...
they climb up the ladder and hang the banner up...
the wood ladder kept shaking...
luckily we 4 people hold the ladders tight...
if not, they sure become superman d^^
then, we went bek to the air-cond room and continue to cut out our tag...
i reali like our tag and camp t-shirt...
luckily i m still alive from the exam's war~
sick jor so many days...
yesterday finally fever d...
high fever... almost 39...
so 2day morning mummy brought me to clinic...
now feels better...
thx god!
13/3/2010
2day went to new era college wif all camp ajk to do some preparation...
stupid sian jee told me that they all still eating in yellow corner...
mana tahu when i arrived they all gone d...
phone no money to call...
luckily 7-11 is jz behind yellow corner...
if nt sian jee's mata will bengkak...
finally met them in cziplee and then walk to new era...
after sian jee "bull-shit" about new era facilities, we started to arrange table and chairs in the classroom that will sleep for 2 nites...
the room is quite cold...
i wonder where got 3D2N camp jz nid to pay RM80 and sleep at air-cond room ah?
so comfortable and worthy~
after finished arranged tables chairs and chit-chated, we went to big hall to hang up our banner...
xian min and sian jee became our hero...
they climb up the ladder and hang the banner up...
the wood ladder kept shaking...
luckily we 4 people hold the ladders tight...
if not, they sure become superman d^^
then, we went bek to the air-cond room and continue to cut out our tag...
i reali like our tag and camp t-shirt...
tadda~ my tag... the frog represented AJK...
[yap jia hui- guitarist]
although i m nt good enuf in guitar... but i will try my best~
while shu hwa sticking the sticker, me and xian min playing wif th sticker...
kiddo rite? we reali big kid~
my tag~ after deco by me~
xian min and my tag~
due to my sickness, i went home earlier...
2ml i will be overnite at new era college earlier than others~
monday is our big day~
hope everything is ok!
[i m reali looking forward to this camp~]
although i m nt good enuf in guitar... but i will try my best~
while shu hwa sticking the sticker, me and xian min playing wif th sticker...
kiddo rite? we reali big kid~
my tag~ after deco by me~
xian min and my tag~
due to my sickness, i went home earlier...
2ml i will be overnite at new era college earlier than others~
monday is our big day~
hope everything is ok!
[i m reali looking forward to this camp~]
2010/03/07
疯狂的一天...
疯狂的一天...
我从昨晚9点读到现在早上7点
足足10个小时
我从天黑读到天亮
从月亮读到变成太阳
从有DJ当班读到DJ下班后再上班
从别人睡觉读到别人起床
靠的是一杯咖啡 和 onefm
手握着的是无数的notes和参考书...
没想到没有了teh o的陪伴 我还可以疯狂过上一次
哈哈 =.=
这10个小时内
我听了无数次的礼物 和 切歌 和 battlefield
[莫怪~onefm的歌就只有那么多]
没办法
我得和时间竞争
我扣除等下睡觉的4个半小时
半小时吃早午餐
我就只剩下5个小时
因为晚上还要出去帮爸妈做工
真的好希望从他们嘴巴听到他们说出不用我做工这5个字
那样我会开心过中4D
唉~发梦都没有这么早~
只因为怕它
所以我反复的读它
10个小时
滚瓜烂熟？
我想并没有吧！
你现在问我问题的话我肯定答不出
不过 我想它已经锁在我大脑的某个部分
当我回答问题的时候 它应该会跑出来吧！
但愿如此...
傻佬
还好你睡了~
不然你就真的没有精神开工
因为你只睡2个小时而已~
加油加油加油！
"晚安~"
我从昨晚9点读到现在早上7点
足足10个小时
我从天黑读到天亮
从月亮读到变成太阳
从有DJ当班读到DJ下班后再上班
从别人睡觉读到别人起床
靠的是一杯咖啡 和 onefm
手握着的是无数的notes和参考书...
没想到没有了teh o的陪伴 我还可以疯狂过上一次
哈哈 =.=
这10个小时内
我听了无数次的礼物 和 切歌 和 battlefield
[莫怪~onefm的歌就只有那么多]
没办法
我得和时间竞争
我扣除等下睡觉的4个半小时
半小时吃早午餐
我就只剩下5个小时
因为晚上还要出去帮爸妈做工
真的好希望从他们嘴巴听到他们说出不用我做工这5个字
那样我会开心过中4D
唉~发梦都没有这么早~
只因为怕它
所以我反复的读它
10个小时
滚瓜烂熟？
我想并没有吧！
你现在问我问题的话我肯定答不出
不过 我想它已经锁在我大脑的某个部分
当我回答问题的时候 它应该会跑出来吧！
但愿如此...
傻佬
还好你睡了~
不然你就真的没有精神开工
因为你只睡2个小时而已~
加油加油加油！
"晚安~"
2010/03/04
recently life T.T
recently life quite busy...
NonoNo~ is very busy!
i can't even get a good sleep everyday...
how sad T.T
exam exam exam!
it's jz around the corner...
well prepared?
of coz NOT!
oh my gosh~
i jz hope my five best fren won't fail...
i never fail before since the 1st exam in kindergarten...
god bless me~
opps!
too many things i wan~
- netbook/notebook/ipod touch
- phone phone
- clothes clothes shoes shoes and watch
- camera camera
- enough resting time
- sabah/taiwan/hong kong
ohh~ it's much much more that i didn't wrote them out...
till when i onli can own all those things?
reali hope that i will get one of them f.o.c especially phone camera and notebook or ipod touch!
haha~
Mission IMPOSSIBLE!
well, i have to work to earn money so that i could fulfill the wishlist although my timetable is totally full and packed!
argh!!! i nid wat i wan!
i nid rest!!!
darling darling where r u???
NonoNo~ is very busy!
i can't even get a good sleep everyday...
how sad T.T
exam exam exam!
it's jz around the corner...
well prepared?
of coz NOT!
oh my gosh~
i jz hope my five best fren won't fail...
i never fail before since the 1st exam in kindergarten...
god bless me~
opps!
too many things i wan~
- netbook/notebook/ipod touch
- phone phone
- clothes clothes shoes shoes and watch
- camera camera
- enough resting time
- sabah/taiwan/hong kong
ohh~ it's much much more that i didn't wrote them out...
till when i onli can own all those things?
reali hope that i will get one of them f.o.c especially phone camera and notebook or ipod touch!
haha~
Mission IMPOSSIBLE!
well, i have to work to earn money so that i could fulfill the wishlist although my timetable is totally full and packed!
argh!!! i nid wat i wan!
i nid rest!!!
darling darling where r u???
2010/02/07
痞子
刚刚看完痞子蔡的《爱尔兰咖啡》
感觉还很不错 还是老样子
痞子的书就是有这种威力
每次看了以后 就会深思
心情超沉淀的
可能是因为这样吧
所以每当我想心情peace一点 都会选择看他的书
我很放纵我的思绪 这也是构成我想法奇怪的理由
其实 我爱的是痞子蔡的写作手法
我喜欢他的ending 因为他的ending像是一种starting
他的ending会让你进入深思的状态
他的书从来没有the end这两个字
意味着他的写作灵感也还没到该画上句点的时候
或许你会想说为什么我这么奇怪 不是喜欢故事情节 而是喜欢ending
我会耸耸肩说不知道
喜欢 本来就不需要理由嘛
喜欢是感性的 所以不要用理性的角度去解剖它
也不用奢望解剖了会有你想要的答案
我在想
好不好我在我家书房成立一个痞子蔡的角落
里面放的都是痞子蔡的书
这感觉 应该还不错吧~
好 就这么决定 =P
思绪越飘越远了 我没有想要抽离的决定
就让它飘吧 说不定我会想通一些问题
我不会否决它的存在 因为我需要它...
感觉还很不错 还是老样子
痞子的书就是有这种威力
每次看了以后 就会深思
心情超沉淀的
可能是因为这样吧
所以每当我想心情peace一点 都会选择看他的书
我很放纵我的思绪 这也是构成我想法奇怪的理由
其实 我爱的是痞子蔡的写作手法
我喜欢他的ending 因为他的ending像是一种starting
他的ending会让你进入深思的状态
他的书从来没有the end这两个字
意味着他的写作灵感也还没到该画上句点的时候
或许你会想说为什么我这么奇怪 不是喜欢故事情节 而是喜欢ending
我会耸耸肩说不知道
喜欢 本来就不需要理由嘛
喜欢是感性的 所以不要用理性的角度去解剖它
也不用奢望解剖了会有你想要的答案
我在想
好不好我在我家书房成立一个痞子蔡的角落
里面放的都是痞子蔡的书
这感觉 应该还不错吧~
好 就这么决定 =P
思绪越飘越远了 我没有想要抽离的决定
就让它飘吧 说不定我会想通一些问题
我不会否决它的存在 因为我需要它...
2009/12/10
vaccum~
well, i m here to vacuum my blog...
i have a long long times din blog on my daily life...
so today i will do it...
i found that recently i keep watch 2 times on a movie within a week...
i watch 2 times of 2012 in november...
and in the 1st week of dec, i watch JUMP for 2 times...
maybe u will think that i m wasting money but i have no other choices....
i watched wif my frens but after that my family wana to watch it too...
so i have to watch 2 times... anyways, i still can accept it~
i bought a skirt during the latest outing wif my family at Times Square on Tue...
a nice skirt but i still thinking wat kind of shoes that suit that skirt...
okie~ i will make it clear before christmas coz i will wear it during christmas countdown wif Ivy~
i felt that me and him are closer and closer...
hope this will continues...
better and better~
i have a long long times din blog on my daily life...
so today i will do it...
i found that recently i keep watch 2 times on a movie within a week...
i watch 2 times of 2012 in november...
and in the 1st week of dec, i watch JUMP for 2 times...
maybe u will think that i m wasting money but i have no other choices....
i watched wif my frens but after that my family wana to watch it too...
so i have to watch 2 times... anyways, i still can accept it~
i bought a skirt during the latest outing wif my family at Times Square on Tue...
a nice skirt but i still thinking wat kind of shoes that suit that skirt...
okie~ i will make it clear before christmas coz i will wear it during christmas countdown wif Ivy~
i felt that me and him are closer and closer...
hope this will continues...
better and better~
2009/11/27
tag!
点名规则:
A. 被点到名字的要在自己的博客里写下自己的答案，然后去掉一个你最不喜欢的问题再加上一个你的问题，仍然组成20个问题，传给其他8个人，列出其他8个需要 回答问题的人的名字，还要到这8个人的部落格裡留言通知对方——你被点名了，被点名者不得拒绝回答问题，完成游戏的人将会永远得到大家的祝福。
B. 这８个人要在自己的部落格裡註明是从哪裡接到的，并且再传给其他8个人，让游戏继续下去，不得回传。被点到名字的人将会得到大家的祝福，并且所有美好的愿 望都会在不久的将来实现。
Tag:
-->June
-->Ivy
-->Gheese
-->Jac
1.你最希望从朋友(不包括爱人)那里得到的是什麼?
-->真正的友谊
2.最近最郁闷的事?
-->没有工作做
3.最受不了自己的哪个缺点?
-->冲动
4.难过的时候会..?
-->睡觉
5.说出点你名的人3个优点(不可删除题)。
-->高大，幽默，可爱
6.以一个形容词形容点名的人的外表。
-->美
7.你现在最想做的是什麼?
-->买电话和电脑
8.用一个字形容自己.
-->废
9.你的梦想?
-->想拥有喜欢自己唱歌的粉丝
10.这辈子做过最疯狂的事情是什麼?
-->目前为止是从balakong巴士站走进sg.long的那次
11.十年以后，你想过什麼样的生活?你打算如何实现呢?
-->去一些比较平静的地方和喜欢的人生活
12.接下来最想去旅行的国家或城市? 为什么?
-->目前是台湾
13. 你为什么要回答这些问题?
-->无聊咯
14. 怕不怕世界末日？
-->不怕，我倒很想有这一天
15.什麼时候觉得孤独?
-->夜晚，想着他的时候
16.最近一次掉眼泪是?
-->应该是好朋友离开吧！不记得了
17.想对点你名的人说的话？
-->我很乖哦~
18.家人重要还是伴侣重要?
-->都重要吧！
19.择偶条件？
-->体贴，爱我，了解我多过我了解我自己，开心伤心都爱我身边
20.在被tag之前，在做些什么？
-->看blog
A. 被点到名字的要在自己的博客里写下自己的答案，然后去掉一个你最不喜欢的问题再加上一个你的问题，仍然组成20个问题，传给其他8个人，列出其他8个需要 回答问题的人的名字，还要到这8个人的部落格裡留言通知对方——你被点名了，被点名者不得拒绝回答问题，完成游戏的人将会永远得到大家的祝福。
B. 这８个人要在自己的部落格裡註明是从哪裡接到的，并且再传给其他8个人，让游戏继续下去，不得回传。被点到名字的人将会得到大家的祝福，并且所有美好的愿 望都会在不久的将来实现。
Tag:
-->June
-->Ivy
-->Gheese
-->Jac
1.你最希望从朋友(不包括爱人)那里得到的是什麼?
-->真正的友谊
2.最近最郁闷的事?
-->没有工作做
3.最受不了自己的哪个缺点?
-->冲动
4.难过的时候会..?
-->睡觉
5.说出点你名的人3个优点(不可删除题)。
-->高大，幽默，可爱
6.以一个形容词形容点名的人的外表。
-->美
7.你现在最想做的是什麼?
-->买电话和电脑
8.用一个字形容自己.
-->废
9.你的梦想?
-->想拥有喜欢自己唱歌的粉丝
10.这辈子做过最疯狂的事情是什麼?
-->目前为止是从balakong巴士站走进sg.long的那次
11.十年以后，你想过什麼样的生活?你打算如何实现呢?
-->去一些比较平静的地方和喜欢的人生活
12.接下来最想去旅行的国家或城市? 为什么?
-->目前是台湾
13. 你为什么要回答这些问题?
-->无聊咯
14. 怕不怕世界末日？
-->不怕，我倒很想有这一天
15.什麼时候觉得孤独?
-->夜晚，想着他的时候
16.最近一次掉眼泪是?
-->应该是好朋友离开吧！不记得了
17.想对点你名的人说的话？
-->我很乖哦~
18.家人重要还是伴侣重要?
-->都重要吧！
19.择偶条件？
-->体贴，爱我，了解我多过我了解我自己，开心伤心都爱我身边
20.在被tag之前，在做些什么？
-->看blog
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