blog temporary closed

may not be posting for a long time...
because i m not in good mood and gt no time to update my blog....
maybe i will quit blogger...
recently here gt many unhappy thing...
i still can't 100% control myself...
let's me keep up my mind and start over new...
just give me sum period of times...
bad thing had been totally corrupted my mind...

complicated mood in my heart...
what's going on?
i know but i don't really wish to accept it...
i knew something while i viewed blog just now...
these few days i didn't update my blog because i m sad when i open my blog...
so i had chosen to hide myself from those blog...
who can rescue me accept me?
i told myself i need concentrated on my study....
there will be nothing happen...
does it work?
seem no...

don't try to tell me and give me a hope or forcing me to follow up your mind...
i don't need it and don't wish to get it...
forget about it...
i will be able to cheer up soon...
nothing can hit me down and screwed me up...
i can stand it up although there are no one give me a support hand or arm...
because i know clearly that life must go on no matter what's happen....

okays...
here is my ending...
i know i will get lots of lesson when i really stand on it...
i will use the lesson to live in my future time...
i just believe what i had been feel with my eyes, ears, hands...
so just wait the coming days...
god is always by my side...

-fey-

R.I.P Michael Jackson

R.I.P Michael Jackson

actually i am not so know in him...
before he dead...
i just know him that he is a big star who well known with his dance and songs...
especially moonwalk...
he looks so charm and handsome when he dancing moonwalk...
O.M.G! i always give this respon when i watch it...
but his songs... i m pretty sure that i never hear he sing before...
but i m not so sure that whether i got hear his song sang by another singer...
maybe some of his song i think nice and introduced by another singer but i never realize is M.Jackson's songs...
anywhere, after he dead...
my brother had intro some M.J's songs for me...
but most of that is soft songs....
here i intro to u all these 2 songs that i think most nice...
click and hear it....
u will found that it is nice n lyric is damn meaningful...

回复你们的大道理...

原本已打算不再写这件事
也不再理这件事
可是我真的不得不解释
这一次 我希望是最后一次

我想我要再说一次
也是最后一次解释这件事
我没有改裙！
麻烦你睁大你的眼睛看清楚！
我们在同一个地方做裙的
你不是不知道
aunty帮我量了身过后 就说星期六可以来拿
就酱简单
我没有跟她说我要做窄裙 改短裙
麻烦你不要再误会我了！
关于你所担心的事
谢谢你的关心
我会照顾自己

至于你
无话可说
妥协？
这两个字在我用在我身上已经很久了
我有哪一次不对你们妥协？
现在你想用那两个字？
请便... 衷心希望你把这两个字带走...
不过 这两个字不需要用在我身上
我不配这两个那么优美的字
对不起~

至于另一个你
没有意见
你的道歉是给她的
不关我的事

还是朋友吗？
我不知道
妈妈说 多一个敌人不如多一个朋友
我会听妈妈的话滴~
你们还当我是朋友的话
无任欢迎~
不当我是朋友的话
我也没关系~
朋友啊朋友
谢谢你们啊~
我上了一堂宝贵的课...

我的名句
[骂不还口 打不还手...]

心声

有很多很想说的话
都选择放在心里
因为即使我说了出来
都不会有好的结果
沉默，是我的朋友

我不懂你所说的是不是我
不过只想对你说
别以为只有你很委屈 你很不爽
拜托！我也很不爽！
看到你的虚伪 滴10罐eye more都没有用
你是否曾经反省过呢？
平心静气地停下来思考
从不同的角度去看整件事
或许你会找到你要的答案

给你
我在房间真得哭了
我很久都没有这样释放我的感情了
或许你对了
我真的累了
我付出的 都得不到
只是一直给我的爱于别人
其实我跟他们一样 也需要一些实际的爱
我完全明白上帝是爱我的
可是我真的真的痛了
上帝啊 每天都给我满满的爱
让我可以给于别人 也能给于自己

原来伤害慢慢累积
就会演变成伤痕
伤痕呆久了
就会盲目
盲目过后
剩下的就是痛苦
痛苦过后
就会结疤
而我
几时才会结疤呢？

我希望不用跟着人家的影子走
我希望我是主角
而你们围着我旋转
就当作我围着你们走了这么久
这个愿望就是你们对我的一点小补偿吧！

放下。才能真正拥有

难忘

很久没有用华文来写部落格了...
我还是爱华文的xD
好啦... 回来回来...
今天想分享些什么呢？
看下面就知道咯...

今天迟起床了T.T
妈妈没有在旁边帮忙反而一直唠唠叨叨的
让我的思绪更乱
唉.... 习惯就好...
顺利上了巴士 来到学校
很累啊~
砰~我倒在桌上睡了...
懒猪中~~~
睡了大概15分钟吧 过后我醒了
一抬头就看见dear在我前面
意识还没清醒 脸颊就被亲了一下
morning kiss? 可能吧！
过后还是很舍不得地赶dear去duty
就和teh o下去咯...
进礼堂坐了下来就努力地k komsas...
等下要给教育部官员lisan了！
还好有teh o... 不然我死了都没人理...
还好噩梦过了... phew~

下课过后才回班 seni节...
没话讲咯 老师好人到~没有教书...
所以就跟嘉俊和teh o聊天咯...
嘉俊头发被剪 他好像很想哭...
哎哟... 我跟teh o在这啦... 不要哭...
更何况 你的发型不会很丑...
不是安慰你 是事实...
seni过后就上science...
专心听课咯... 我的风格嘛~ 哈哈
做实验... 就酱过了两节咯...
BI节...
jaylim教了我一首关于BI老师的歌...
" go go go~a ley a ley a ley~go go go a ley a ley a ley~"
aley~老师的名字...
我跟teh o一直在那边唱...
哈哈...
BI节 我没带老师的书
怎么办？ 出去自首咯~
怎知老师没骂我哦~ lucky~
过后就处理明天比赛的事...
最后yih帮我解决了...谢谢你...
RM15换一个比赛的机会...
值得吗？ 值得...
谢啦嘉凌...

我要去做功课了
过后温习功课...
拜拜...

10 shoutout from me... reali beh tahan d!!!

i have many things to write...
since i hav a few days din on9 and din write blog...
hope i remember wat i wana write la...

firstly...
i resign!!!
i change bek to pinafole and become a normal student d...
clap~
a gud news for me...

secondly...
i beh song d!
wat the fuck....
before we do the poster u all din said wat can do and wat we cant do....
but now?
complain n complain...
so pandai u all do it urself!
grrr.....

thirdly....
my exam sucks!
all mark low till no eye see...
this is y i din open the comp this few days...
busy plus no mood to play d....
muz gambateh jor....
dun think i m jz kidding...
i will do it!

fourthly....
i seem getting know the situation in friendship...
i know wat to do and ppl usually will do wat....
from now on...
i will jz treat ppl gud if the ppl treat me gud....
fair enuf?
ya...~
if u dun wan to be fren wif me....
then pls go die and die far away~
i also dun hope to see u....

fifthly....
i m nt u all de doll...
like when to treat me gud then treat me gud....
like when to treat me bad then treat me bad....
i m a human being...
mayb i m nt so important for u all...
but please respect me and respect urself too....
u all too fake d...
omg!
but thx god!
let me realize this....

sixthly...
hey dude!
u hurt me!
i will double triple give u bek this things...
wait n see...
most good u go away lar...
i reali dun wan to see u....
make me sad onli...

seventhly...
arhhhh!!!
i nid rest!
i wan sleep!
i wan to do bek myself!
real fey~

eighthly...
thx dear tat wat u gave....
i will appreciate it...
love u o~
muackzzz....

ninethly...
y time r always nt enuf?
i nid time!!!
i wan use it to do wat i wan...
i wan keep fit?
i wan pak to?
i wan do revision?
mayb~
i nid time!!!

tenthly....
hope i can runaways from 27/6 morning...
i m looking forward on 27/6 nite....
oh my!!!
happy~^^

write finish d!
and wan to say again....
i hate u!!!

an unforgetable nite

saturday life[13/6]

a special busy day...
arrive skul around 9am...
went to fish pond to find rui n practice guitar wif her and of coz Stephanie~
me and rui had a guitar exam on 11am...
so we have to prepare well...
coz if failed, we hav to exam again...
if passed, we will upgrade to level 2...
i m the first ppl who start the exam...
duh... fine... fast fast go then no more worries and scare...
teacher wan us to play 3 chord wif struming and plucking...
and of coz... a song tat played myself sing myself...
after i finish my exam, it's rui's turn...
she told me tat she saw teacher gv 80 mark to me and 60 mark for her...
means i get distinction and she get merit....
after finish exam we had a small meeting wif nigel and mun hong...
then we went our for lunch and buy tools together....

we had our lunch at yellow corner...
for sure... i ordered nasi goreng pattaya...
nice huh? maybe~
we went to buy tools in cziplee and guang hua...
everything done, we went to steph's hse and start our work....
crazee us!
keep on playing wif glitter... no matter hands,legs,face,nose all kena d...
stupid rui.... grr~
around 5.30pm, me and rui walk home together....
bath and prepared for the concert....
a new try of my costume....
rui helped me alot~
around 7pm we arrived skul....
we went to library to find dear coz our ticket r wif him...
rui gossip wif dear and i duno wat's they talking during tat time...

a nice concert...
this concert is their first new try....
but gt tis type of result...
count nt bad d....^^
dang so leng lui~ i love her so muchie...^^
after concert jf jumped down from stage...
talk few sentences then i helped webteam members to keep their things...
dear jumped down from the stage but i duno....
rui and yih saw the whole process...
while i take all those things and ready to turn my body....
suddenly i get hugged~
i haven gv myself a respon but rui and yih at there shout d...lolx...
dear hugged me....^^
crazee yih and rui took photo of me and dear....
dear hugged me again in tat photo... paiseh neh~
then me and him walk to backstage there then seperate d...
he went to library and i went bek to webteam room...
after keeping all the things santik treated us for a drink in mamak stall....
around 10.15pm we walk bek to skul and wait for my mum...
took sum silly picha after i arrived home...

a new try... nice?


yeah^^


miss u~

say real de... the scene still inside my mind till now...

had a phone talk wif dear around 12.30am....
he told me tat his phone suddenly gt RM50 credit...
duno who help him top up de...
so lucky him... and from now on...we can sms and talk phone d...^^

vv ah vv~
no nid scare la...
gambateh~

an unforgetable nite~

accurate test...

a test tat i done jz nw...
i found it from my fren's blog...
accurate man!
fantastic~
the websites-http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
go n try out urself...


the result

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

trip to fraser and genting~

long time din blog d...
from mon to wed i m nt at home....
yesterday lazy to write....
so 2day onli tell u guys at here about where i went in these few days...
and upload sum picha let u all see see...
actually i took many photo... but quite lazy upload...
those photo is silly photo lai de lar...
most of the photos took at genting...

Sunday nite(7/6)
jz came bek from work....
cant hit target again....
becoz 2day jz left a bit to sell....
so impossible let me hit my target....
keke...
around 12am arrive home....
tired and lazy to keep all my thing into luggage...
jf find me to chat....
we start chat around 1.30am....
chat until 3.30am....
2 hours... we jz keep on bla nonsense...
actually i nid to wake up on 4.30am....
and he said he accompany me chat until 4.30am....
but he broke the promise.... duh!

Day 1[mon(8/6)]
mummy wake me up around 5am....
after we all gao dim all the things, we went to my uncle's hse....
then start our journey lo...
around 10am arrive our destination-fraser hills
we go find out our hotel....
reali paiseh... my bro book wrong hotel d....
rmb wrong hotel name....
muahaha... after we check in,we had our lunch...
then we went to waterfall....
too bad me and my sis cant play...
coz we having period...T.T
but we snap sum picha at there... have a look!

me and my sis...


me and my sis without spec...


hey u!


same mouth style... haha...xD


omg! naked?


on the way to waterfall...

after waterfall we went to park to ride horse and play archery...
unfortunately horse riding is close... so we jz can play archery...
snap sum photo at there...

yeng or nt?


aim ur target... 1 2 3 shoot!

i m injured in this game...
coz the stupid guy din help us do security activity...
my hand all red in color jor and pain....T.T
after all those thing... we went bek to hotel....
i watched few episod of 桌球天王there...
at nite we had our cup noodles as dinner in hotel....
after ate dinner... i went bed to sleep...
beh tahan d... too tired...T.T

Day 2[tues(9/6)]
wake up d then went out...
snap sum silly picha wif sis...AGAIN! hahaxD

blek~


鬼脸二人组...=.=lll

we went to ride horse after we took our breakfast...
snap sum photo but nt at me here...
later onli upload...
we went down fraser hill around 12pm....
then my daddy and uncle decided went to genting....
we had our lunch in a restaurant....
u know wat?
吃了酱多餐，终于有一餐是能吃的...
after we had our lunch... we start our journey to genting....
suddenly, my uncle made a phone call to my daddy...
he said he wan stay overnite at genting...
luckily i gt bring more clothes....
my sis, my bro, daddy and mummy all wear their clothes tat being wear on mon....
lucky me!
in car park... my bro said tat he look like 私家侦探 wif the camera....
swt... he wan me to snap sum photo of his look...

detective?


shooting target....

after arrive genting...
daddy mummy+ uncle aunty go settle hotel things....
we all went to starbucks... coz bro wana check out his result....
he ordered a cup of chocolate blended coffee(duno the name is this or nt... my bro told me many times... but i forgot d...)
taste nice... but the price more nice... RM13++ per cup....
phew~
finally we get our room...
14 ppl stay in 4 room...夸张~
after we had our dinner... we went to carpark to take our luggage....
we straight away go bath when we get into our room...
after bath we went out rayau rayau...
parents went to casino there gambling...
we went to bowling... and play those stupid machines games....

around 2am get into bed and sleep~

Day 3[wed(10/6)]
wake up on 11am...
then pack our thing and ready to check out...
after put our luggage on car....
3 of them(small kid) go theme park to play...
parents go gambling again...
and we go walk walk and see gt wat to buy....
around 7pm we went down from genting....
we went to had our dinner...
arrive home around 11pm...
end of our trip....
xD!

outing on times square again!

昨天又出去了！
算一算... 应该是第三次出去了...
还要是去同一个地方....
times square....
去到要吐了...
怎知我真的去到就吐了...
超辛苦加paiseh的...
为了让姐妹们不担心我...
只好一直开玩笑咯...
真得很想吐咯！我讨厌来野！
谢谢我的vv
谢谢我的mahuan
谢谢我的tze yang
gam xia!
也感谢主！

走路的时候是脚步不稳的
讲话的时候是含含糊糊的
头 好重 我根本抬不起来
我知道我要晕了 不dim了
还好yih陪我...
带我去gasoline...
做什么?
废话！睡觉咯！
aligator....
当然还有我的弟弟....
谢谢你们...

ttx啊ttx...
你真的有够搞笑的...
给你讲讲笑话 我尽然不想睡了
tze yang你也是....
两个加起来真的是谐星二人组...
忘不了你们在gasoline做的趣事...
kakaxx....

我们...
大概已经习惯了这种恋爱方式吧！
我不知道....
只想看着你 不说任何一句话
我心中是有很多东西想跟你说的
只是 我说不出口
我知道你还在意我所说的话
我知道你还在思考我所说的话
所以 我只能不断的压抑自己
希望 我可以

fuck!

wat the fuck....
wat's mean by 单独跟男生出去？
fuck!
jac leh? nt ppl ah?
wat's means by 我不管你，总之不能出...
wat the hell u talking?
if u dun let me go out de reason is i always hang out in this holiday...
fine... i accept...
but wat u said?
"为什么昨天没有问过我就乱乱单独跟男生出去？"
hey! please la....
i gt ask mum ok?
steven also said wana go....
originally we go together de ok?
jz at the last minute he said he dun wan go d...
so make the situation becum like tat....
and the truth is we still gt go fetch jac at balakong...
sumore gt vivien...
where gt 单独？

wat the fuck!
do u still remember wat u said in the car on the way to fetch me to bus stop?
u said:"你什么都问妈妈，不敢问我，是因为你妈妈好欺负..."
hey fuck! dun u know u said like tat will make a mistaken between me and mum?
always said i m nt obey u....
hey fuck! how can i obey u?
u never stand on my side and think it!
wat i m a gal?
fucking reason....
wat u told me when i m small?
dun so fren wif gal.... they like to gossip...
boys are more better... at least u make them angry they also wun keep the dendam....
fuck u la!

wat newspaper wrote sumone let a stranger bring her away?
i know... i gt read the newspaper....
so? 1 ppl do wrong thing then whole world also gt fault?
y u cant try to understand me?
when i hang out u said me go 癫...
难道你真得要我天天呆在家...
你讲左我不敢讲右？
你讲上我不敢讲下？
那个是你们的复制品！不是你们的女儿！

我终于了解为什么那些新闻为什么常常都发生！
就是因为你们！
不是因为你们太放纵孩子，是因为你们根本不了解孩子...
说没有两句就搬你们那些大道理出来...
不是你的道理没有用，而是这种表达方式谁会去听？
渐渐地，我们就会觉得跟你们讲也是浪费时间，浪费口水...
所以就没有了沟通... 你们不了解我们在做什么，而我们也不了解你们在做什么...
发生事的时候就来不及了....
教不听不是给我们的，是给你们的！
是你们教了，却没有听...
只会给却不听feedback...
没有用的！
百货公司都懂得让顾客填写feedback表格....
难道你们就不懂得用另一个角度去看整件事吗？

算了....
因为你的一句"我不管...总之*&%^%$$#@#"
我 已经对你失望了！
没想到你们这么无理取闹...
我没话说....
只想让你们知道...
不要把我逼疯！我不懂会发生什么事！

我beh tahan!!!!!!!

random post AGAIN

currently waiting my sister to come bek...
mummy and daddy go genting d...
left 1 car at hse....
but my sister drive it away....
T.T
my brothers and i wana go for bowling....
so wait for her to come bek lo...

2nite go sg.long pasar malam wif kai hong them...
haha.... quite happy....
happy of wat?
mummy let me go la....
keke... coz i say bro follow me go mar....
mao bian lo....
if i said i go myself then mummy sure diao me de...
wateva la....
com'on....
jz pasar malam...
my bro will take care of himself...
and me? sampat wif kai hong them lo....
keke....^^

outing...

2day outing wif him and rui, mahuan and jf....
go times square plus sg.wang....
12.30pm watch monsters vs alien....
erm... wat comment about it?
secret... i think i know it myself then is ok...
i know it is hurt... haiz...
after that go eat mcd....
we cant leave mcd far away...
wherever we are mcd is following us....
should be happy?

ultimate power group....
reali gik si ngai...
firstly is they nt on time lo...
3.30pm onli start...
ok...suan....
but hor... the mahuan ah....
y u so shy de?
1st time see u like tat leh...
keke....
but u look smart when u wear like tat...

after ultimate power group we went to gasoline...
cam whore times!

the carrot juice tat i ordered... erm... quite nice...

me and rui... gasoline...



me and him...



dark... cant see us...

i haven gv him the present....
jz gave him the birthday card...
hope he will like it la...
i reali use a long time and many heart to do tat....
keep it nicely ya....


[p.s. he gave me a ring... although nt very nice but i can feel wat he feels...]

happy birthday to dear^^

2day is dear birthday...
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to my dear dear...
Happy Birthday to you...
Happy Birthday o dear...
i din forget u la...
jz planing to gv u a surprise...
so i din greets u...
let u tot i m forget of ur birthday....
hehe... dun blame ah....

haiz...
so sad...
i haven done dear birthday card....
so planed 2nite open nite car to finish it...
although i m jz came bek from work and now quite tired...
but i know... it's worth if dear happy when see the card....

klar...
i go do the card 1st...
scare 2ml cant wake up on time...
2ml go out wif dear o...
quite looking forward it...^^

before i off....
let me to say tat
Happy Birthday to gheese....!