it's has been long times i didn't blog about my life. Perhaps I am still alive x.x
i planned to change my blog skin but i forgot the skin websites.
i would like to have a plain white blog skin with a meaningful picture on it. but i failed.
it's okays. i am not rushing for it right?
i am busy recently. of course, i am busy with my jobs.
i am having 2 jobs in the same times.
morning until evening i working at pelangi publisher factory and yet i working with my parents at night.
lots of things that i haven't do, lots of planning that i failed to complete, and in the others hand the time had flow in light speed.
perhaps i know magic. perhaps i have 48 hours per days so that i can do what i want.
what to do? life is so imperfect. what i can do is keep encourage myself. "though life is overrated, i gotta work my way out to make it", right?
so here is a conclusion of my life,
i am a bee X.x
2010/12/03
=]
god,
can you spare me strength?
I'm so tired now..
why do everyone put me aeroplane?
say going but not going at last?
why?
just because of i am not belongs to that gang?
just because of i don't have many friends?
i don't understand.
i really don't understand.
what the holy shit inside those people's brain?
it's suck!
but nevermind,
i'm sure that one days you all will having the same condition with me..
that is what people always said "风水轮流转"..
so just let me wait for the days..
and,
please remember how u all treat me in this period,
dun blame me if i treat u the same way,
and better don't make me laugh at you..
anyways,
this is the last time i organizing trip,
next time,
don't ever find me to help you all planning any outing and trip again,
i just hope that u all can learn the lesson i learning..
after that think back how u treat me,
and think back should you all treat people like that,
so you will know what should do..
right? =]
can you spare me strength?
I'm so tired now..
why do everyone put me aeroplane?
say going but not going at last?
why?
just because of i am not belongs to that gang?
just because of i don't have many friends?
i don't understand.
i really don't understand.
what the holy shit inside those people's brain?
it's suck!
but nevermind,
i'm sure that one days you all will having the same condition with me..
that is what people always said "风水轮流转"..
so just let me wait for the days..
and,
please remember how u all treat me in this period,
dun blame me if i treat u the same way,
and better don't make me laugh at you..
anyways,
this is the last time i organizing trip,
next time,
don't ever find me to help you all planning any outing and trip again,
i just hope that u all can learn the lesson i learning..
after that think back how u treat me,
and think back should you all treat people like that,
so you will know what should do..
right? =]
2010/11/24
Insomnia..
I am insomnia again =x
Ok. Take it easy babe..
Try to find something to do..
Hmp....
Let's blog about my feeling about these few days.
As usual,
I woke up around 11am,
After brush teeth and breakfast time,
On facebook and msn,
If nothing special I'll on tv or watch movies..
Today,
My dad woke me up around 9am,
He brings us out to breakfast,
Planed to my uncle's house after buying those ingredient for my dad's business at Selayang,
But failed to do so, my dad decided to go home..
We lost our ways during the journey,
Finally, we found our ways when we saw MidValley Megamall..
My dad suggested to have a walk in MidValley,
We were windows shopping along and took our lunch at KFC..
Then, we went home.
I open facebook again when I reached home..
Saw some articles that about couples activities..
I found him in my mind indeed when I was reading the articles.
I felt sad and I missed him.
It was a hard feeling. It's pain.
I told myself thousand times, he is no longer belongs to me but I just can't put down him.
He will flash out my mind when I read or touch or went or doing anythings or any places that related to him.
Is I myself to break up with him so I shouldn't have these kind of responses when I was in the circumstances.
Perhaps I need times. Perhaps it will just take a short period for putting him down.
May times can cure everythings =(
I having some problems with home.
I just can't communicate nicely with them recently.
Don't try to get any reason from me on these problems.
Because I myself have no idea on that.
Hopes I can settle it as soon as possible.
Loneliness appeared again.
Where can I find an ear? A shoulder?
Who can I call in this late night to share my feeling with him/her?
It's hurt when I found nobody.
Maybe I should enjoy the loneliness?
Oh gosh!
You are appearing in my mind now again.
Arghhh! Help!!
I knew I can't call you. I knew I shouldn't do that. :'(
I knew you will having your final exam next week.
All the best ya =p
Goodnight everyone..
Ok. Take it easy babe..
Try to find something to do..
Hmp....
Let's blog about my feeling about these few days.
As usual,
I woke up around 11am,
After brush teeth and breakfast time,
On facebook and msn,
If nothing special I'll on tv or watch movies..
Today,
My dad woke me up around 9am,
He brings us out to breakfast,
Planed to my uncle's house after buying those ingredient for my dad's business at Selayang,
But failed to do so, my dad decided to go home..
We lost our ways during the journey,
Finally, we found our ways when we saw MidValley Megamall..
My dad suggested to have a walk in MidValley,
We were windows shopping along and took our lunch at KFC..
Then, we went home.
I open facebook again when I reached home..
Saw some articles that about couples activities..
I found him in my mind indeed when I was reading the articles.
I felt sad and I missed him.
It was a hard feeling. It's pain.
I told myself thousand times, he is no longer belongs to me but I just can't put down him.
He will flash out my mind when I read or touch or went or doing anythings or any places that related to him.
Is I myself to break up with him so I shouldn't have these kind of responses when I was in the circumstances.
Perhaps I need times. Perhaps it will just take a short period for putting him down.
May times can cure everythings =(
I having some problems with home.
I just can't communicate nicely with them recently.
Don't try to get any reason from me on these problems.
Because I myself have no idea on that.
Hopes I can settle it as soon as possible.
Loneliness appeared again.
Where can I find an ear? A shoulder?
Who can I call in this late night to share my feeling with him/her?
It's hurt when I found nobody.
Maybe I should enjoy the loneliness?
Oh gosh!
You are appearing in my mind now again.
Arghhh! Help!!
I knew I can't call you. I knew I shouldn't do that. :'(
I knew you will having your final exam next week.
All the best ya =p
Goodnight everyone..
2010/11/16
失眠的夜
2010年11月16日
这个夜晚 我失眠了
不知道为什么
我头脑总是分泌出一些人的影子
和一些跟他们曾经经历过的事
我想起了他
这几天都想起了他
每当晚上回房间睡觉时
一闭上眼他的一切就会浮现
好几个晚上 都是他陪我入眠的
甚至发梦也会梦见他
但是在现实生活中
我很想靠近他 可是我就停滞不前
我怕而且忧虑着很多事
我怕 我一往前他就退后
我怕 他会推开我
我怕 我们因此再也不是朋友
我怕 我们不适合
我怕 我们都被时间错过了
我怕 我是因为寂寞所以才找上他
我更怕 我会伤害到另一个她
我有太多无法确定的因素了
我也担心事后的结果并不天从人愿
我不敢告诉任何人
因为被牵连的 实在太多了
不说出来 或许 是一个更好的选择
我很乱
我不懂该怎么做
顺其自然 结果会否像我期望的一样？
努力去争取 会否得不到我想要的？
毕竟我跟他好不容易才和好
跟她更是多年好友
我并不想失去这一切
不过
事实摆在眼前
目前我能够做的
也只是扮演好朋友的角色
一步一步来
其他的都不去想了
一切就听天由命吧！
加油！
这个夜晚 我失眠了
不知道为什么
我头脑总是分泌出一些人的影子
和一些跟他们曾经经历过的事
我想起了他
这几天都想起了他
每当晚上回房间睡觉时
一闭上眼他的一切就会浮现
好几个晚上 都是他陪我入眠的
甚至发梦也会梦见他
但是在现实生活中
我很想靠近他 可是我就停滞不前
我怕而且忧虑着很多事
我怕 我一往前他就退后
我怕 他会推开我
我怕 我们因此再也不是朋友
我怕 我们不适合
我怕 我们都被时间错过了
我怕 我是因为寂寞所以才找上他
我更怕 我会伤害到另一个她
我有太多无法确定的因素了
我也担心事后的结果并不天从人愿
我不敢告诉任何人
因为被牵连的 实在太多了
不说出来 或许 是一个更好的选择
我很乱
我不懂该怎么做
顺其自然 结果会否像我期望的一样？
努力去争取 会否得不到我想要的？
毕竟我跟他好不容易才和好
跟她更是多年好友
我并不想失去这一切
不过
事实摆在眼前
目前我能够做的
也只是扮演好朋友的角色
一步一步来
其他的都不去想了
一切就听天由命吧！
加油！
2010/11/13
Random post..
2.53am
I will remember this moment..
The moment I miss you badly..
I saw the blog I wrote about you before..
I found that the memory between us was sweet..
You are the one who treat me most sincerely and most protect me..
How good if we can back to the pass..
So that I can cherish you again..
I promise if I am given the chance, I will treat you the best I can..
But,
I should Figure out the feeling in my heart.
Do the feeling pop out when I am lonely?
Or I really fall in love with you in the second time?
Do we suitable to be couple again?
Erm, the best way to investigate is we separate for a period of time..
Right?
Pray hard to Lord..
A-men
I will remember this moment..
The moment I miss you badly..
I saw the blog I wrote about you before..
I found that the memory between us was sweet..
You are the one who treat me most sincerely and most protect me..
How good if we can back to the pass..
So that I can cherish you again..
I promise if I am given the chance, I will treat you the best I can..
But,
I should Figure out the feeling in my heart.
Do the feeling pop out when I am lonely?
Or I really fall in love with you in the second time?
Do we suitable to be couple again?
Erm, the best way to investigate is we separate for a period of time..
Right?
Pray hard to Lord..
A-men
2010/10/27
2010/10/26
保险期
还在深宵k书着，
此刻手在键盘 眼在荧幕 耳在988..
最近真的很逊哦
我真的好久好久没写些很感性的东西
没记错的话大概有一年多的时间了
刚看了988DJ 欣怡的部落格
突然有股冲动 有股感性的心情
想写写自己的心情
可登入了部落格以后
那些感觉全军覆没了
呼~~ 算了呗！
做人要看开点嘛~ 这样日子才容易过 ^.^v
不过话说回来
我真的有段很长的时间没写了
最近的文笔有点生锈了
每每当我自己责怪自己的时候
就会有个想法帮自己逃离
不断地告诉自己 感觉真的在酝酿着
可是这煲汤也未免煲太久了吧！
纳闷~ >.<
刚才在欣怡的部落格里看到这么的一句话
"如果单纯不要刻意保鲜，是否会被生命氧化？"
这句话有在我心里回荡了一下下，
如果我们不要刻意地保鲜，会否让另一样东西给氧化掉？
那么爱情呢？
很多人都把爱情用保鲜纸给系上，希望爱情可以长跑..
可是勉强地贴上保鲜纸，意义还存在吗？
但我们人往往就是这样，也许是习惯吧！
但如果我能选一样来豁免保鲜期的存在，我会选择人的想法..
在我的角度里，随着人的年龄逐渐增长，想法也要越来越成熟吧！
当我用理性思考时，心灵就会平静下来，
清晰的头脑，可以帮助我分析什么是该做的什么是不该做的..
人长大了，想法应该也要到达那种年龄层吧！
或许是自己一厢情愿的想法，可我不觉得这有什么不好的 =]
988电台也进入没DJ的时段，
看看时钟也已进入2010年10月26日的第2个小时了..
心情已调节好，study mood也回来了~
加油吧！
此刻手在键盘 眼在荧幕 耳在988..
最近真的很逊哦
我真的好久好久没写些很感性的东西
没记错的话大概有一年多的时间了
刚看了988DJ 欣怡的部落格
突然有股冲动 有股感性的心情
想写写自己的心情
可登入了部落格以后
那些感觉全军覆没了
呼~~ 算了呗！
做人要看开点嘛~ 这样日子才容易过 ^.^v
不过话说回来
我真的有段很长的时间没写了
最近的文笔有点生锈了
每每当我自己责怪自己的时候
就会有个想法帮自己逃离
不断地告诉自己 感觉真的在酝酿着
可是这煲汤也未免煲太久了吧！
纳闷~ >.<
刚才在欣怡的部落格里看到这么的一句话
"如果单纯不要刻意保鲜，是否会被生命氧化？"
这句话有在我心里回荡了一下下，
如果我们不要刻意地保鲜，会否让另一样东西给氧化掉？
那么爱情呢？
很多人都把爱情用保鲜纸给系上，希望爱情可以长跑..
可是勉强地贴上保鲜纸，意义还存在吗？
但我们人往往就是这样，也许是习惯吧！
但如果我能选一样来豁免保鲜期的存在，我会选择人的想法..
在我的角度里，随着人的年龄逐渐增长，想法也要越来越成熟吧！
当我用理性思考时，心灵就会平静下来，
清晰的头脑，可以帮助我分析什么是该做的什么是不该做的..
人长大了，想法应该也要到达那种年龄层吧！
或许是自己一厢情愿的想法，可我不觉得这有什么不好的 =]
988电台也进入没DJ的时段，
看看时钟也已进入2010年10月26日的第2个小时了..
心情已调节好，study mood也回来了~
加油吧！
2010/10/25
encouragement
It's me again..
I'm run out of study mood..
I'm desperate for someone's encouragement..
but i feel sad with the feedback..
All the times,
I was the one who keep encourage myself when i facing difficulties..
Unfortunately, I am not god..
I will moody like what I having now..
What to do?
I just can maintain the situation..
Encourage myself for the exam..
Let's have a deep breathe,
close up your eyes,
relax your mind,
tell yourself that you sure can,
1 2 3
open your eyes and study..
Jia you! If you think you can, you can make the different!
Quote of today: Positive spirit is the best weapon to achieve the goals..
I'm run out of study mood..
I'm desperate for someone's encouragement..
but i feel sad with the feedback..
All the times,
I was the one who keep encourage myself when i facing difficulties..
Unfortunately, I am not god..
I will moody like what I having now..
What to do?
I just can maintain the situation..
Encourage myself for the exam..
Let's have a deep breathe,
close up your eyes,
relax your mind,
tell yourself that you sure can,
1 2 3
open your eyes and study..
Jia you! If you think you can, you can make the different!
Quote of today: Positive spirit is the best weapon to achieve the goals..
2010/10/22
renew~
it's 11.44pm now...
i'm sitting in front of com...
things keep crossing my mind so sudden..
i just couldn't escape from it..
i wondering why problems won't stop for a while..
everyday every moment the problems will come and knock my door..
after i solved them, another will come..
it's just like a non-stop circle..
keep turning around me..
concert planning,
exam revision,
job vacancy,
income,
phone,
electric guitar,
oh gosh!
i hope i can run away from all of these..
when can i owe a new phone?
i really desperate for it..
but i know that it will be a long period for my next phone..
i knew that i should cherish for what i owe now..
at least the situation isn't worst until i have no phone to use..
but, i still hope that i can owe a new phone with camera function...
aimed Sony Ericsson Aino for it's 8.1 megapixel camera...
okie..
exam just passed 1 week with 10 papers...
still got 2 more weeks to go..
hopefully everythings will be fine..
must pray hard to god le..
i thought about my future..
finally, i had change my mind..
but i still struggle between business admin, accounting, banking and finance with mass com..
maybe i shouldn't think about so far for now..
anyways, i had made up my mind..
form 4 --> form 5 --> matriculation --> university
if possible i hope to study at oversea..
scholarship is the key to success because i knew that my dad had no money to spend on my study..
so i just can continue with scholarship that i have to achieve by my own self..
i like matriculation just because their system..
they seperate into few sem so that i can study seperately..
it's a tough work if u having final exam with the whole thick textbook like form 6..
okie..
it's the time to bed..
flu is visiting me..
better have a good rest now and start my study's engine later on 5am...
gambateh every candidates of the stupid final exam...
next week is the toughest week but after that we are free!
so be patient for the coming holiday~
Quote for today: life is easier with happiness, aren't?
i'm sitting in front of com...
things keep crossing my mind so sudden..
i just couldn't escape from it..
i wondering why problems won't stop for a while..
everyday every moment the problems will come and knock my door..
after i solved them, another will come..
it's just like a non-stop circle..
keep turning around me..
concert planning,
exam revision,
job vacancy,
income,
phone,
electric guitar,
oh gosh!
i hope i can run away from all of these..
when can i owe a new phone?
i really desperate for it..
but i know that it will be a long period for my next phone..
i knew that i should cherish for what i owe now..
at least the situation isn't worst until i have no phone to use..
but, i still hope that i can owe a new phone with camera function...
aimed Sony Ericsson Aino for it's 8.1 megapixel camera...
okie..
exam just passed 1 week with 10 papers...
still got 2 more weeks to go..
hopefully everythings will be fine..
must pray hard to god le..
i thought about my future..
finally, i had change my mind..
but i still struggle between business admin, accounting, banking and finance with mass com..
maybe i shouldn't think about so far for now..
anyways, i had made up my mind..
form 4 --> form 5 --> matriculation --> university
if possible i hope to study at oversea..
scholarship is the key to success because i knew that my dad had no money to spend on my study..
so i just can continue with scholarship that i have to achieve by my own self..
i like matriculation just because their system..
they seperate into few sem so that i can study seperately..
it's a tough work if u having final exam with the whole thick textbook like form 6..
okie..
it's the time to bed..
flu is visiting me..
better have a good rest now and start my study's engine later on 5am...
gambateh every candidates of the stupid final exam...
next week is the toughest week but after that we are free!
so be patient for the coming holiday~
Quote for today: life is easier with happiness, aren't?
2010/10/17
break
wait...
first of all, i hope i can take a deep breathe..
huu~ ok...
i m taking a break from sejarah and bm revision now..
and it's a right time to blog..
i didn't went to work this two days..
actually i felt guilty of this..
because i knew that my dad needs me for his business due to i had a long time din help him when i was traveling at Sabah...
haiz.. i knew this is out of my possibility..
if i given a chance, i hope i can separate myself at once so that i can help my dad and study for exam in a meantime.
it's jz a dream. i knew it.
i m lack of times...
i m the one who cause this problem happened.
my rational told me to study as much as i can, but my laziness told me not to touch books.
obviously, my laziness won the match.
i got do revision, but most of times i waste it with sleep and dreaming.
okays, i accept the truth. i will try my best, no worries k?
countdown: 22 days~
first of all, i hope i can take a deep breathe..
huu~ ok...
i m taking a break from sejarah and bm revision now..
and it's a right time to blog..
i didn't went to work this two days..
actually i felt guilty of this..
because i knew that my dad needs me for his business due to i had a long time din help him when i was traveling at Sabah...
haiz.. i knew this is out of my possibility..
if i given a chance, i hope i can separate myself at once so that i can help my dad and study for exam in a meantime.
it's jz a dream. i knew it.
i m lack of times...
i m the one who cause this problem happened.
my rational told me to study as much as i can, but my laziness told me not to touch books.
obviously, my laziness won the match.
i got do revision, but most of times i waste it with sleep and dreaming.
okays, i accept the truth. i will try my best, no worries k?
countdown: 22 days~
听君一席话
刚刚跟我哥聊了聊
我们说到人的脑和人的心
他说的很对
我很赞同
:"某某某很聪明又如何？人的心最重要，如果人的心无法控制大脑，几聪明也是假的..."
:"就像爱因斯坦，他的智商200，人人都说他很聪明，就连他死了科学家也拿他的脑来研究，研究他为什么这么聪明。可是实际上是他的聪明帮助他得到一切的吗？不。他也是经过无数次的失败才有今天的成就，而成就他的就是他的心，他的毅力，他的坚持。所以说，一个人如果不能接受失败，从失败中学习，坚持到底，即使给他再高的天资智商也没有用。"
:"一个人的心态很重要，就像你有一把刀，如果你的心态正确，你就会拿刀来帮助你做切割工作，如果你心态不正确，你就会拿刀杀人，一样的道理。"
:"考试成绩不好没关系，就重要是你的心态要正确，要问心无愧。尽力了就好，千万不要放弃。只要不放弃，你还有机会达到目的，一旦你认输了，你就在也没有机会获得成功。"
听君一席话，胜读十年书。
我赞同我哥所说的。
只要我不放弃，就还有成功的希望。
心态真的很重要，是决定一切的关键。
加油吧！叶家妃！
我们说到人的脑和人的心
他说的很对
我很赞同
:"某某某很聪明又如何？人的心最重要，如果人的心无法控制大脑，几聪明也是假的..."
:"就像爱因斯坦，他的智商200，人人都说他很聪明，就连他死了科学家也拿他的脑来研究，研究他为什么这么聪明。可是实际上是他的聪明帮助他得到一切的吗？不。他也是经过无数次的失败才有今天的成就，而成就他的就是他的心，他的毅力，他的坚持。所以说，一个人如果不能接受失败，从失败中学习，坚持到底，即使给他再高的天资智商也没有用。"
:"一个人的心态很重要，就像你有一把刀，如果你的心态正确，你就会拿刀来帮助你做切割工作，如果你心态不正确，你就会拿刀杀人，一样的道理。"
:"考试成绩不好没关系，就重要是你的心态要正确，要问心无愧。尽力了就好，千万不要放弃。只要不放弃，你还有机会达到目的，一旦你认输了，你就在也没有机会获得成功。"
听君一席话，胜读十年书。
我赞同我哥所说的。
只要我不放弃，就还有成功的希望。
心态真的很重要，是决定一切的关键。
加油吧！叶家妃！
2010/10/04
2010/09/27
Oops!
你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他有那么好
你说会懂我的失落
不是靠宽容
就能够解脱
我以为
我出现的时候刚好
你和他正说要分开
我以为你
已对他不再期待
不纵容他再给你伤害
我以为我的温柔
能给你整个宇宙
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生
我以为终究
你会慢慢明白
他的心不在你身上
我的关心
你依然无动于衷
我的以为只是我以为
我以为我的温柔
能给你整个宇宙
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生
他让你红了眼眶
你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好
你要留在谁身旁
我以为我够坚强
却一天天地失望
少给我一点希望
希望就不是奢望
却输得那呢绝望
Based on her situation and this song,
the feeling that I kept deeply inside my heart fade out again..
I duno wat happen to me..
I thought I m d kept it well..
I thought I d nth..
I thought I d forgot the feeling..
Lord, I hope that it is jz a dream..
Jz a small period of thinking nonsense..
I hope hat this wun affect me n him..
I hope that lord can gv me strength to differentiate reality n dream..
He, was jz a pass..
Jf, is my choice now..
I love him..
I do meant it..
你对他有那么好
你说会懂我的失落
不是靠宽容
就能够解脱
我以为
我出现的时候刚好
你和他正说要分开
我以为你
已对他不再期待
不纵容他再给你伤害
我以为我的温柔
能给你整个宇宙
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生
我以为终究
你会慢慢明白
他的心不在你身上
我的关心
你依然无动于衷
我的以为只是我以为
我以为我的温柔
能给你整个宇宙
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生
他让你红了眼眶
你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好
你要留在谁身旁
我以为我够坚强
却一天天地失望
少给我一点希望
希望就不是奢望
却输得那呢绝望
Based on her situation and this song,
the feeling that I kept deeply inside my heart fade out again..
I duno wat happen to me..
I thought I m d kept it well..
I thought I d nth..
I thought I d forgot the feeling..
Lord, I hope that it is jz a dream..
Jz a small period of thinking nonsense..
I hope hat this wun affect me n him..
I hope that lord can gv me strength to differentiate reality n dream..
He, was jz a pass..
Jf, is my choice now..
I love him..
I do meant it..
2010/09/18
2010/09/17
2010/09/02
2010/08/31
revision
4am now,
going to sleep although i am not sleepy..
Don't hope to break my record for 10++ hours study for exam non-stop 2day...
i scared my brain will blank out...
hopefully it won't...
ps: Don't think that tomolo will wake up on time for breakfast with movie kaki..
okays,
i have to off to bed!
Happy Merdeka Day~
Gambateh on my exam! ush ush ush~
going to sleep although i am not sleepy..
Don't hope to break my record for 10++ hours study for exam non-stop 2day...
i scared my brain will blank out...
hopefully it won't...
ps: Don't think that tomolo will wake up on time for breakfast with movie kaki..
okays,
i have to off to bed!
Happy Merdeka Day~
Gambateh on my exam! ush ush ush~
2010/08/27
2010/08/22
Birthday
Read her blog just now..
Honestly, I m envy about her life..
Her life is full of best frenships bt wat do I?
When i was still a small little child,
I always told my fren that I got a lots of frens n I admit my social network is quite good..
Bt now, I have to admit that I m a looser.. Looser in frenships..
Actually, I m nt so trust on my fren around me..
the side-effect of being betrayed?
I jz cnt figure it out..
I reali scare to get hurt from my dear frens d..
Perhaps they always do believe n sayang me..
Honestly, every year before my birthday, I m quite looking forward for it..
I m curious that wat my fren will give me n how do they celebrate for me..
So do this year..
Bt it is quite sad that wat I imagine isn't happened..
Due to imagine=fake illusion?
I cnt get the surprise party or any related surprise from them..
I hope that I cn get the same things from fren as wat I have done for them..
Will this small little request consider as a excessive request?
Haha..
It is just a sudden feeling that I caught when I read her blog..
This post is meant nothing..
Jz a fucking bull shit post..
Ignore this please..
Thanks for ur cooperation.. ^.^
Honestly, I m envy about her life..
Her life is full of best frenships bt wat do I?
When i was still a small little child,
I always told my fren that I got a lots of frens n I admit my social network is quite good..
Bt now, I have to admit that I m a looser.. Looser in frenships..
Actually, I m nt so trust on my fren around me..
the side-effect of being betrayed?
I jz cnt figure it out..
I reali scare to get hurt from my dear frens d..
Perhaps they always do believe n sayang me..
Honestly, every year before my birthday, I m quite looking forward for it..
I m curious that wat my fren will give me n how do they celebrate for me..
So do this year..
Bt it is quite sad that wat I imagine isn't happened..
Due to imagine=fake illusion?
I cnt get the surprise party or any related surprise from them..
I hope that I cn get the same things from fren as wat I have done for them..
Will this small little request consider as a excessive request?
Haha..
It is just a sudden feeling that I caught when I read her blog..
This post is meant nothing..
Jz a fucking bull shit post..
Ignore this please..
Thanks for ur cooperation.. ^.^
2010/08/10
2010/07/09
2010/03/23
Happy Birthday to Mii!
Happy Birthday to Mii...
Happy Birthday to Mii...
Happy Birthday to Mii...
Happy Birthday to Mii...
Happy Birthday!
looking forward of my little genting and ipod touch!
opps~!
Happy Birthday to Mii...
Happy Birthday to Mii...
Happy Birthday to Mii...
Happy Birthday!
looking forward of my little genting and ipod touch!
opps~!
2010/03/21
Musical Dream
okays...
let's have a short review of the music camp...
sunday(14/3)
suppose to arrive at new era on 5pm...
due to the stupid sian jee and xian min went to midv watch movie till cant rush bek to kjg and i have to wait them, so we were late to there including audio & lighting....
okays...
after we finished to fetch all the drums and audio tools to new era, we went out and had our dinner at 7 wonders...
sian jee paid the bills by camp money....(shhh....)
then we walked bek to new era and start our works...
we arrange the t-shirt, seperate them into group, put their tag and receipt into t-shirt and stick newspaper to cover the door's windows...
until 3am we onli went to bed...
whole nite we keep singing SJ's sorry sorry while lixuan busy talking phone wif her hubby...
monday(15/3)
taa-daa! the big days!
we woke up at 5am and walked to McD to have our breakfast...
after that quickly walked bek to new era and start our work...
after opening ceremony and ice-breaking, we had our 1st talk about band concept...
i missed sum part of it, coz i went out wif my parents coz of some urgent matters...
at nite, treasure hunt, incharged by our facilitators...
a tired and horror treasure hunt...
we run here and there in the new era and escape from those "monster", find our clues to finish our mission...
new era is a small hills, try imagine that we have to run here and there...
wat i can said that it is very crazy and tired...
after treasure hunt, AJKs had a small and long meeting...
we quickly to have our bath after meeting...
end our days around 2am...
tuesday(16/3)
woke up around 6am...
while waiting our breakfast, we had our morning exercises...
no mood to do so i jz sit beside and continue to sleep...
but i knew, it was a nice morning exercise...
after breakfast, we still have 2 talks to go on....
my eyes keep closing when attending those talks coz i m very tired and i fall sick again...
when telematch, i went to become head of station games...
no more energy to play...
after dinners, our showtimes!
an awesome talents nite, i like it!
went to bed around 1am...
we 6 girls' AJK keep dance SJ's Sorry Sorry...
fully addicted of it...
wed(17/3)
another 6am to wake up...
i go help preparing breakfast so i missed the morning exercise again...
after that, it's another talks that followed by closing ceremony...
i almost cried in closing ceremony...
wat did Mary Ann said is touching my heart, i reali felt wat she said...
then, we sang our theme songs again~
camp came to an end...
i went home around 4pm after finish keeping all the things...
an awesome camp...
nice theme song that composed by zhilin and weng yin...
i will keep this memories in the deep of heart...
it's a waste that u din attend to the camp, rui...
i will post the video, photos and theme song lyrics later...
see ya=]
let's have a short review of the music camp...
sunday(14/3)
suppose to arrive at new era on 5pm...
due to the stupid sian jee and xian min went to midv watch movie till cant rush bek to kjg and i have to wait them, so we were late to there including audio & lighting....
okays...
after we finished to fetch all the drums and audio tools to new era, we went out and had our dinner at 7 wonders...
sian jee paid the bills by camp money....(shhh....)
then we walked bek to new era and start our works...
we arrange the t-shirt, seperate them into group, put their tag and receipt into t-shirt and stick newspaper to cover the door's windows...
until 3am we onli went to bed...
whole nite we keep singing SJ's sorry sorry while lixuan busy talking phone wif her hubby...
monday(15/3)
taa-daa! the big days!
we woke up at 5am and walked to McD to have our breakfast...
after that quickly walked bek to new era and start our work...
after opening ceremony and ice-breaking, we had our 1st talk about band concept...
i missed sum part of it, coz i went out wif my parents coz of some urgent matters...
at nite, treasure hunt, incharged by our facilitators...
a tired and horror treasure hunt...
we run here and there in the new era and escape from those "monster", find our clues to finish our mission...
new era is a small hills, try imagine that we have to run here and there...
wat i can said that it is very crazy and tired...
after treasure hunt, AJKs had a small and long meeting...
we quickly to have our bath after meeting...
end our days around 2am...
tuesday(16/3)
woke up around 6am...
while waiting our breakfast, we had our morning exercises...
no mood to do so i jz sit beside and continue to sleep...
but i knew, it was a nice morning exercise...
after breakfast, we still have 2 talks to go on....
my eyes keep closing when attending those talks coz i m very tired and i fall sick again...
when telematch, i went to become head of station games...
no more energy to play...
after dinners, our showtimes!
an awesome talents nite, i like it!
went to bed around 1am...
we 6 girls' AJK keep dance SJ's Sorry Sorry...
fully addicted of it...
wed(17/3)
another 6am to wake up...
i go help preparing breakfast so i missed the morning exercise again...
after that, it's another talks that followed by closing ceremony...
i almost cried in closing ceremony...
wat did Mary Ann said is touching my heart, i reali felt wat she said...
then, we sang our theme songs again~
camp came to an end...
i went home around 4pm after finish keeping all the things...
an awesome camp...
nice theme song that composed by zhilin and weng yin...
i will keep this memories in the deep of heart...
it's a waste that u din attend to the camp, rui...
i will post the video, photos and theme song lyrics later...
see ya=]
2010/03/14
camp preparation
Hoo~
luckily i m still alive from the exam's war~
sick jor so many days...
yesterday finally fever d...
high fever... almost 39...
so 2day morning mummy brought me to clinic...
now feels better...
thx god!
13/3/2010
2day went to new era college wif all camp ajk to do some preparation...
stupid sian jee told me that they all still eating in yellow corner...
mana tahu when i arrived they all gone d...
phone no money to call...
luckily 7-11 is jz behind yellow corner...
if nt sian jee's mata will bengkak...
finally met them in cziplee and then walk to new era...
after sian jee "bull-shit" about new era facilities, we started to arrange table and chairs in the classroom that will sleep for 2 nites...
the room is quite cold...
i wonder where got 3D2N camp jz nid to pay RM80 and sleep at air-cond room ah?
so comfortable and worthy~
after finished arranged tables chairs and chit-chated, we went to big hall to hang up our banner...
xian min and sian jee became our hero...
they climb up the ladder and hang the banner up...
the wood ladder kept shaking...
luckily we 4 people hold the ladders tight...
if not, they sure become superman d^^
then, we went bek to the air-cond room and continue to cut out our tag...
i reali like our tag and camp t-shirt...
luckily i m still alive from the exam's war~
sick jor so many days...
yesterday finally fever d...
high fever... almost 39...
so 2day morning mummy brought me to clinic...
now feels better...
thx god!
13/3/2010
2day went to new era college wif all camp ajk to do some preparation...
stupid sian jee told me that they all still eating in yellow corner...
mana tahu when i arrived they all gone d...
phone no money to call...
luckily 7-11 is jz behind yellow corner...
if nt sian jee's mata will bengkak...
finally met them in cziplee and then walk to new era...
after sian jee "bull-shit" about new era facilities, we started to arrange table and chairs in the classroom that will sleep for 2 nites...
the room is quite cold...
i wonder where got 3D2N camp jz nid to pay RM80 and sleep at air-cond room ah?
so comfortable and worthy~
after finished arranged tables chairs and chit-chated, we went to big hall to hang up our banner...
xian min and sian jee became our hero...
they climb up the ladder and hang the banner up...
the wood ladder kept shaking...
luckily we 4 people hold the ladders tight...
if not, they sure become superman d^^
then, we went bek to the air-cond room and continue to cut out our tag...
i reali like our tag and camp t-shirt...
tadda~ my tag... the frog represented AJK...
[yap jia hui- guitarist]
although i m nt good enuf in guitar... but i will try my best~
while shu hwa sticking the sticker, me and xian min playing wif th sticker...
kiddo rite? we reali big kid~
my tag~ after deco by me~
xian min and my tag~
due to my sickness, i went home earlier...
2ml i will be overnite at new era college earlier than others~
monday is our big day~
hope everything is ok!
[i m reali looking forward to this camp~]
although i m nt good enuf in guitar... but i will try my best~
while shu hwa sticking the sticker, me and xian min playing wif th sticker...
kiddo rite? we reali big kid~
my tag~ after deco by me~
xian min and my tag~
due to my sickness, i went home earlier...
2ml i will be overnite at new era college earlier than others~
monday is our big day~
hope everything is ok!
[i m reali looking forward to this camp~]
2010/03/07
疯狂的一天...
疯狂的一天...
我从昨晚9点读到现在早上7点
足足10个小时
我从天黑读到天亮
从月亮读到变成太阳
从有DJ当班读到DJ下班后再上班
从别人睡觉读到别人起床
靠的是一杯咖啡 和 onefm
手握着的是无数的notes和参考书...
没想到没有了teh o的陪伴 我还可以疯狂过上一次
哈哈 =.=
这10个小时内
我听了无数次的礼物 和 切歌 和 battlefield
[莫怪~onefm的歌就只有那么多]
没办法
我得和时间竞争
我扣除等下睡觉的4个半小时
半小时吃早午餐
我就只剩下5个小时
因为晚上还要出去帮爸妈做工
真的好希望从他们嘴巴听到他们说出不用我做工这5个字
那样我会开心过中4D
唉~发梦都没有这么早~
只因为怕它
所以我反复的读它
10个小时
滚瓜烂熟？
我想并没有吧！
你现在问我问题的话我肯定答不出
不过 我想它已经锁在我大脑的某个部分
当我回答问题的时候 它应该会跑出来吧！
但愿如此...
傻佬
还好你睡了~
不然你就真的没有精神开工
因为你只睡2个小时而已~
加油加油加油！
"晚安~"
我从昨晚9点读到现在早上7点
足足10个小时
我从天黑读到天亮
从月亮读到变成太阳
从有DJ当班读到DJ下班后再上班
从别人睡觉读到别人起床
靠的是一杯咖啡 和 onefm
手握着的是无数的notes和参考书...
没想到没有了teh o的陪伴 我还可以疯狂过上一次
哈哈 =.=
这10个小时内
我听了无数次的礼物 和 切歌 和 battlefield
[莫怪~onefm的歌就只有那么多]
没办法
我得和时间竞争
我扣除等下睡觉的4个半小时
半小时吃早午餐
我就只剩下5个小时
因为晚上还要出去帮爸妈做工
真的好希望从他们嘴巴听到他们说出不用我做工这5个字
那样我会开心过中4D
唉~发梦都没有这么早~
只因为怕它
所以我反复的读它
10个小时
滚瓜烂熟？
我想并没有吧！
你现在问我问题的话我肯定答不出
不过 我想它已经锁在我大脑的某个部分
当我回答问题的时候 它应该会跑出来吧！
但愿如此...
傻佬
还好你睡了~
不然你就真的没有精神开工
因为你只睡2个小时而已~
加油加油加油！
"晚安~"
2010/03/04
recently life T.T
recently life quite busy...
NonoNo~ is very busy!
i can't even get a good sleep everyday...
how sad T.T
exam exam exam!
it's jz around the corner...
well prepared?
of coz NOT!
oh my gosh~
i jz hope my five best fren won't fail...
i never fail before since the 1st exam in kindergarten...
god bless me~
opps!
too many things i wan~
- netbook/notebook/ipod touch
- phone phone
- clothes clothes shoes shoes and watch
- camera camera
- enough resting time
- sabah/taiwan/hong kong
ohh~ it's much much more that i didn't wrote them out...
till when i onli can own all those things?
reali hope that i will get one of them f.o.c especially phone camera and notebook or ipod touch!
haha~
Mission IMPOSSIBLE!
well, i have to work to earn money so that i could fulfill the wishlist although my timetable is totally full and packed!
argh!!! i nid wat i wan!
i nid rest!!!
darling darling where r u???
NonoNo~ is very busy!
i can't even get a good sleep everyday...
how sad T.T
exam exam exam!
it's jz around the corner...
well prepared?
of coz NOT!
oh my gosh~
i jz hope my five best fren won't fail...
i never fail before since the 1st exam in kindergarten...
god bless me~
opps!
too many things i wan~
- netbook/notebook/ipod touch
- phone phone
- clothes clothes shoes shoes and watch
- camera camera
- enough resting time
- sabah/taiwan/hong kong
ohh~ it's much much more that i didn't wrote them out...
till when i onli can own all those things?
reali hope that i will get one of them f.o.c especially phone camera and notebook or ipod touch!
haha~
Mission IMPOSSIBLE!
well, i have to work to earn money so that i could fulfill the wishlist although my timetable is totally full and packed!
argh!!! i nid wat i wan!
i nid rest!!!
darling darling where r u???
2010/02/07
痞子
刚刚看完痞子蔡的《爱尔兰咖啡》
感觉还很不错 还是老样子
痞子的书就是有这种威力
每次看了以后 就会深思
心情超沉淀的
可能是因为这样吧
所以每当我想心情peace一点 都会选择看他的书
我很放纵我的思绪 这也是构成我想法奇怪的理由
其实 我爱的是痞子蔡的写作手法
我喜欢他的ending 因为他的ending像是一种starting
他的ending会让你进入深思的状态
他的书从来没有the end这两个字
意味着他的写作灵感也还没到该画上句点的时候
或许你会想说为什么我这么奇怪 不是喜欢故事情节 而是喜欢ending
我会耸耸肩说不知道
喜欢 本来就不需要理由嘛
喜欢是感性的 所以不要用理性的角度去解剖它
也不用奢望解剖了会有你想要的答案
我在想
好不好我在我家书房成立一个痞子蔡的角落
里面放的都是痞子蔡的书
这感觉 应该还不错吧~
好 就这么决定 =P
思绪越飘越远了 我没有想要抽离的决定
就让它飘吧 说不定我会想通一些问题
我不会否决它的存在 因为我需要它...
感觉还很不错 还是老样子
痞子的书就是有这种威力
每次看了以后 就会深思
心情超沉淀的
可能是因为这样吧
所以每当我想心情peace一点 都会选择看他的书
我很放纵我的思绪 这也是构成我想法奇怪的理由
其实 我爱的是痞子蔡的写作手法
我喜欢他的ending 因为他的ending像是一种starting
他的ending会让你进入深思的状态
他的书从来没有the end这两个字
意味着他的写作灵感也还没到该画上句点的时候
或许你会想说为什么我这么奇怪 不是喜欢故事情节 而是喜欢ending
我会耸耸肩说不知道
喜欢 本来就不需要理由嘛
喜欢是感性的 所以不要用理性的角度去解剖它
也不用奢望解剖了会有你想要的答案
我在想
好不好我在我家书房成立一个痞子蔡的角落
里面放的都是痞子蔡的书
这感觉 应该还不错吧~
好 就这么决定 =P
思绪越飘越远了 我没有想要抽离的决定
就让它飘吧 说不定我会想通一些问题
我不会否决它的存在 因为我需要它...
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